Mind over Matter

I just wrote a whole blog. And, that b**** was deleted.

I literally just wrote a blog about how powerful the mind is.

And the universe said, "HAH! Challenge accepted!"

I definitely felt my body heat all the way up. I wanted to throw my computer at a wall. But alas, if my blog vanished, it must not have been meant for your eyes. And that's okay. Perhaps this version is more comedic or more wholesome, so I'll take it.

I recently re-discovered how powerful the human mind is. To use MJ as an example (yes, I am as obsessed as I was at 11; it has come back around....... Did it ever leave, though?), his mind was so beautifully powerful that it made him the legend he is today. He wrote about his legacy and embodied it before anybody ever saw it realized. He's beyond this world and still topping the charts. On the flip side, his mind was so scarred with trauma that I don't know if he ever fully comprehended how much of a gift he was to our world.

That's the power of the human mind. It can create your own personal hell and trap you in it until all your sparkle is gone, or it can bring heaven into your view and make most days full of zest and sunshine. Personally, I would rather use my mind for joy than misery. Why stay trapped in darkness as you lie in bed when you can binge your favorite show and laugh at the fact that your armpits smell akin to a monkey's ass? It's all about perspective, friends. That's the key to a long, joyful, and successful life. (P.S. please shower after laughing so nobody dies from your stench).

Being angry, sad, annoyed, or triggered will always be normal. However, we mustn't let ourselves live in it so long that we lose sight of how to create our own solutions. My mom always used to say, "Set a timer for how long you need to feel your feelings. It can be long or it can be short but once its up, get your shit together. Don't stay in the dark too long that you lose sight of your own light."

And, yes, sometimes these stuck in the dark periods last long or drag on before they fully dissolve. That's okay. Since moving abroad, my flaws and dark spots stare me in the face every day. I'm not ashamed to say that sometimes I do get lost in them. However, I awake the next day, sigh, and challenge myself to make this day better. Sometimes all that looks like for me is a shower and a run to Daiso for pretty press-on nails. But, it works. It's tiny things like this that snowball into things you never imagined possible.

One month ago, I was complaining that I wasn't artistic enough, that I wasn't productive enough. My tiny step to combat that was getting my ass out of bed to watch a movie at the theatre. Next thing I know, I'm with my friend at a dance studio getting information on packages. Next thing I know, I am budgeting and tracking spending daily, ensuring fun is found everywhere within reason. And, here I am now: blogging at almost midnight because spirit told me so.

If spirit is telling me to do something, I'm gonna do it before some other Prince-look-alike blogger hijacks it.

Yes, I feel MJ is behind my shoulder smiling because I'm in my listening to spirit timeline again.

I will leave you with these questions: If your mind holds all this magnificent power, what will you do with it? Will you build your utopia or trap yourself in your chosen chaos?

I pray for your health.

I pray for your wealth.

I pray for your success.

I pray for a great love to find you.

I pray for you because I love you.

See you all May 13th after I see the MJ movie. I will for sure lose my shit so look forward to it!